Picture, if you will, a beautiful little girl with not a care in the world. Five years old for most is a time filled with great wonders and adventure. However, what happens when that innocent and precious time in your life is tainted by the evil hand of molestation? You are placed in a world of silent torment, as your accuser has purposely painted a picture of promised brutality to anyone you may think of reaching out to for help. Typically, this is the state of mind for many of us when this type of misplaced disruption occurs in our lives. This is quite a high bill to pay for someone who has barely mastered the art of tying their shoes and reciting their alphabet. The ones we love most our mother, father and often times grandparents who are normally there to protect us and keep the boogeyman at bay, are no longer there to protect us or so it may seem. God has a strong distaste for anyone that is capable of bringing harm to his children.
Luke 17: 1-2
“Things that cause a people to sin are bound to come, but woe to that person through whom they come. It would be better for him to be thrown into the sea with a millstone tied around his neck than for him to cause one of these little ones to sin”.
The only thing I could think of was that I must have done something to displease God, and that is why he allowed me to be befouled. As time went on, I was traumatized. I subconsciously blocked the event out of my mind. When I was able to see the incident for what it was, I could somewhat comprehend how this situation cast an invisible spell over my life. Even though I had not acknowledged the incident since the days of my youth, that incident played a vital part in the many encounters with the men in my life. Through therapy, I was able to confirm I had always seen myself as an outcast. Only after being able to speak with someone professionally was I able to conclude this incident was not my fault. Growing up, even though we attended church on a regular basis, I could never quite grasp the concept of GOD loving me. When you are in denial, that situation will totally consume you. Though you may think you are doing a great job with handling the situation it has an adverse affect on how you view yourself, which will ultimately filter over into how you are viewed by others.
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
So the first step is to acknowledge the secret. As a culture we are taught certain things are not to be discussed in public. This is what allows those generational curses to continue. Everyone knows about it but no one wants to speak on it for fear of disgracing the family name. The second step is to seek therapy professionally. This will allow you to bring that demon to light and shed the myth that you were at fault. The third step is to join a local group in your area that offers group sessions to contact with someone that can actually relate to what you are going through. Lastly keep God first and above continue to pray and ask for his direction. Sometimes most of the difficult valleys in our life will ultimately serve a purpose for God’s divine destiny for our lives. Your testimony can be the saving grace for someone that may be experiencing the same type of torment. Never take lightly the trials you endure as there is always a silver lining on the horizon, even if it is meant for someone else. Hold your head high and reclaim power over your life. God is forever present and will be the bonding you need to put the pieces back together. And yes you can eventually have the life you have so long deserved as long as you believe God will make a way.
Be Blessed,
Lady 4.0
